it's not easy to type here. trying my hardest to take my mind off some stuff. been feeling so restless. maybe i just need some time alone. who would understand anyway. hope this week end soon. i need that break.

after all this time, i've always thought that i could get anything i want as long as i have the determination. but being proven wrong taught me that i have to be more practical. so yeah, im tired of being on the side. only for a few weeks maybe days but it will be better. plain tired i guess. forget i mention anything..


on the side note, shengn going to army on tues.. no drummer. so yeah hope to jamm soon with everyone.we have grown.

been doing some self-reflection on my actions. it seem i have to stop all these shit. enough of those self-delusion and shit, nothing will come out of it all. so yea, it will be hard, but shall try anyway. i can do this, yes i can.

everything seems fine. but actually its not.. i feel awkward. real awkward.

bored

im bored.. i miss school.. i miss jamming even though its only been a week. and i've got to start letting go.=(





im a ninja.. toldya

HAHAHA boredom strikes..(Y)

For you all

fuck hate feeling jealous..
jealous-inclined to or troubled by suspicions or fears of rivalry, unfaithfulness, etc.,