exsisto validus

these 2 days i have not slept a wink. im constantly having nightmare and i'm afraid. im thinking too much and i cant stay still without opening my eyes. But im guessing today will be a good night. i've come to a conclusion and i stop fucking dreaming cos this is the reality and reality is a bucket full of assholes. So clap your hands, cos i have tried, though i have failed so miserably, im still alive.