Seems that I'm out.only I'm unaware. It meant a lot to me but. Like I lost a friend. Got to pretend I'm not affected by it. This sucks.

NI HAO!

im confusing myself.

bye

Never gave a chance. Too late and regretting. On the sideline like on the pit stop.

smile and act normal, you dont want your cover to be blown.


oh ya dont think im updating any sooner.. moved to my diary..

im sorry.. really sorry..

skinwalker

Your choking on all your regrets
It's my last call and its just getting harder
Before you end this all
Reaches out for something more

Time makes it hard to breathe
We'll I'll live to see another day
And I'll stay strong
And you said this morning I would break

And I won't break

Let me go until you know
If it's coming after all
And they will never catch me

Time makes it hard to breathe
But I'll live to see another day
And I'll stay strong
And you said this morning I would break

I will break, I will break
Cos you said this morning I would break

There's places I have been, no one should ever go
There's things that I have seen, no one should ever know
There's places I have been, no one should ever go
There's things that I have done, no one should ever know

So where do we run, and how do we trust?
When the walls are closing in
And where do you turn, and who do you trust?
When the walls are closing in
Closing in

No
This isn't the end

you can't chip a rock into a diamond or make a flower into a tree. i've understand the fact now and i feel much better. truth or lies, i don't care anymore because they don't matter. thanks for the experience, its been a great ride.

I’m not afraid to try again. I’m just afraid of getting hurt for the same reason.

rock out!

"why be so down when its only you being affected."

exsisto validus

these 2 days i have not slept a wink. im constantly having nightmare and i'm afraid. im thinking too much and i cant stay still without opening my eyes. But im guessing today will be a good night. i've come to a conclusion and i stop fucking dreaming cos this is the reality and reality is a bucket full of assholes. So clap your hands, cos i have tried, though i have failed so miserably, im still alive.

i do want things to be the same, but would you let it be.

im tired but im having a great week.

anyway went to ignite with jayden baby.. hahaha.. IGNITE WAS BULLSHIT! wasted my time going.. but plain sunset was normal. hahaha been flying kite this few weeks.. at night not in the morning.. i think its nicer cos of the led light.. so ya

so shy so cute=D

blame me for being one step slower and you moving on too fast.

Here comes the cold
Break out the winter clothes
And find a love to call your own
You - enter you
Your cheeks a shade of pink
And the rest of you in powder blue

Who knows what will be
But I'll make you this guarantee

No way November will see our goodbye
When it comes to December it's obvious why
No one wants to be alone at Christmas time

In the dark, on the phone
You tell me the names of your brothers
And your favorite colors
I'm learning you
And when it snows again
We'll take a walk outside
And search the sky
Like children do
I'll say to you

No way November will see our goodbye
When it comes to December it's obvious why
No one wants to be alone at Christmas time
And come January we're frozen inside
Making new resolutions a hundred times
February, won't you be my valentine?

And we'll both be safe 'til St. Patrick's Day

We should take a ride tonight around the town
and look around at all the beautiful houses
something in the way that blue lights on a black night
can make you feel more
everybody, it seems to me, just wants to be
just like you and me

No one wants to be alone at Christmas time
Come January we're frozen inside
Making new resolutions a hundred times
February, won't you be my valentine?

And if our always is all that we gave
And we someday take that away
I'll be alright if it was just 'til St. Patrick's Day

understood

tmd.. this 2 weeks i've been spend a lot of money without thinking. time fast freaking fast. its friday already. and friday its as usual some hard core chilling haha. went to man.u club to watch match.. GO MESSI GO! ahahaha.. btw.. "nod nod"

how long has it been.. i'm confused.. what i'm suppose to do.. questions i can't answer it right. well, people move on.

things are hectic. competition on Sunday. friends not talking. plans not fulfilling. and i've been telling myself 'it doesn't matter much,so dont be bothered'. after this week i'll be free.

it's not easy to type here. trying my hardest to take my mind off some stuff. been feeling so restless. maybe i just need some time alone. who would understand anyway. hope this week end soon. i need that break.

after all this time, i've always thought that i could get anything i want as long as i have the determination. but being proven wrong taught me that i have to be more practical. so yeah, im tired of being on the side. only for a few weeks maybe days but it will be better. plain tired i guess. forget i mention anything..


on the side note, shengn going to army on tues.. no drummer. so yeah hope to jamm soon with everyone.we have grown.

been doing some self-reflection on my actions. it seem i have to stop all these shit. enough of those self-delusion and shit, nothing will come out of it all. so yea, it will be hard, but shall try anyway. i can do this, yes i can.

everything seems fine. but actually its not.. i feel awkward. real awkward.